Love You...Love Me Not...?

Do you know what is it with most people nowadays? They tend to hope for miracles when they themselves don't make an effort. Most of them tend to ask questions like.."Do you love me?" ..or.. "How far would you go for me if you do love me..?" But how many of them would really do sit and think otherwise?
For an instance, let's ask ourselves, "Do I love him/her? How far to the extend that I would go if I really do love that special someone?"
Some people I've seen..were too stingy to give.. not even a hug over the MSN, some were so lucky to have love come falling from the sky..so effortlessly..!(lol..), some keep trying so hard, but just couldn't find the right feeling for the right one, while some were like the river of love..ever flowing..ever giving.."..like charity..", Teddy once said..like love overflowing, not realizing the danger when the dam breaks. Err...I mean..when the heart breaks.
As many of you do know..however, over the years, no matter what you do, feelings do change. Nothing stood still over the decades and never change. With still waters in the lake, algae would grow thick. Some people may appreciate the wonders of nature, while others just don't. And that's just an example.
Yes..people do change..feelings change. Sometimes could be even more drastically than the weather. If it changes for the better, then that's great..! But what if it's for the worse..or worst..?? When that happens, what would you do..? If you want him to be happy, let him go and be with someone who could make him happy. Letting go of something you want doesn't mean that you don't love yourself.
"You're just not in the picture..so, stay out of the frame."
"Darling..work things out..!" Yeah...that's easier said than done, doesn't it? But when you do get to that stage..when you know..God knows..with all mighty will in this whole wide world you have tried..and way more than that, and yet..things just couldn't work out, then is when..it's time to let go.
I know well how it feels like..when the moment you're waiting for is not the countdown for Christmas or New Year when fireworks will be launched into the sky for that ever mesmerizing view, but the right moment to say, "Honey..I'm letting you go.."...when how you'd feel is not the kind of excitement for a sweet birthday surprise, but more like your heart is sending emotions all over your body, mind and soul for that total eclipse..when your world would eventually become so dark and cold..that..in an instant, it freezes all the heat you've hold in your heart till you could feel the ultimate break..feeling like a huge part of your world just fall apart...it shattered...
Tears and heartache is unavoidable..and in the end you'll find yourself keep repeating in your mind.."..life goes on..life goes on..life must go on.." ...trying hard to hold yourself together while your heart is still bleeding... and whenever you see or talk to him, there's only two words keep gargling right behind your lips.."..it's okay..(hunny), it's okay.."

It's Okay..

Honey..it's okay..
if you say you've found someone new
who could give you more than I could ever loved you true
I'll be happy just to see the smiles she brought in you..
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Honey..it's okay..
if you say there ain't love you feel for me these days
I'll just turn and look the other way
to hide my tears when you walk away..
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Though I can't be there to hold your hands and say..
"Honey..we'll be okay.."
when we've battled through wiser days..proven by those fine lines on our face
brushing our graying hair..counting each and every good old days..
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I'll be okay..
I'll send you on your way on that midnight train
feeling the cold breeze chilling in that drizzle rain
telling me..from this moment on..I'll be on my own again...

~in that chilling memories~
2010

...sigh...and that's the story.. Well..when beauty and brutality lies side by side..for better or worse, just be honest. Please don't let me be the last one to know, cos' that would hurt me even more...
I'm ready...