Pandan Act(*LOL..!)

"Pandan Act" - That would be a name I give to one of my neighbour's behavior who have been greedy and dishonest. Which neighbour..? If anyone of you who have been to my house, you will be able to identify which selfish neighbour who placed so much of potted plants outside of her fence/yard just to occupy half of the road so that no car can park in front or near her house. Yes..that's the one. And..Why 'pandan'..?
Look..2 weeks ago, she knocked my backyard door lock without calling us..just made enough noise so that I'll go out and answer the back door. She brought 3 lil' packets of her grandbaby's snack food as all she wants was some nice pandan leaves for cooking. Seeing that she keep chucking that lil' packets to me though I don't want to accept them, I guess she must be desperate to have some pandan leaves, so I took my scissors and cut some for her. I took from bottom snipping up, but she kept asking for younger ones. Then I told her, pandan leaves must be dark green the better, not young leaves..and that's not the way u cut n treat your plant either. Later upper botak, becomes no leaves and the rest of the leaves underneath left to grow old and die. Let the shoots grow and she can ask for more next time she need some. Leaves need to take time to grow. I gave her a big bunch she asked..and I also gave her a whole extra tree I have, so that she can grow them and have endless pandan leaves to use..I have then personally lifted the whole ceramic pot with the plant and delivered to her door as she walk back to her house..I thought that was generous enough.. But to my dismay..yesterday, she came and snip away without calling or asking..then hurried away when she heard some noise from my house..cos my dog heard it and went and look through the back door and I followed. Who knows when else she have been stealing and snipping as she like when I'm not at home. So today, I gave her back those lil' packets of toddler snack I accepted from her 2 weeks ago because I was just being polite and she would feel better if I just take it..even though I don't eat those stuff, I'd just give them to someone else. I returned them cos I know only her grandchildren will eat..I know no one else who would. Together in that packet, I wrote her a note..because I really don't like these selfish and greedy act..and how she have ignored my advise, and disrespectfully came stealing n snipped off the young leaves by the shoots..the tree is becoming ugly and grow worse if I don't stop the thief's act now. 
Plants have feelings, love n self esteem too..and need love and attention. I know it all these years when I've seen how my plants flowers with my care and attention. They grow ugly and die without proper love n care. This is also a kind of 'pantang' in our Malaysian language. Plants can be 'siew hei' too..we call it 'upset' or maybe 'depressed'. Believe it or not, nature also knows their surroundings..they choose to flourish for those who care. Everyone and every family may have funny or weird things of their own,. It may range from parking habits, cats or dog poo issues, buang sampah habits, tanam pokok habits with daun kering issue, etc to disturbing noisy vehicle, etc.. In that case, I guess I myself also can't run away from being cursed when I come home in the middle of the night in my noisy farting bug. We never know what your neighbours think about us..So, I always try my best to behave..So, for anyone out there..please do not do any of these 'Pandan Act'..It's not nice..! Please love your neighbour, love your surroundings, love your nature, love yourself..okay..^^

Pretty Little Cupcake

"Life is like a cupcake"..it sure looks beautiful with it's pretty icing sugar coating deco, "Oooo...yummy..!^^", but so much of it is just so bad for health. The cake in the cup..nice to eat while it's fresh..stiffen a bit overnight but still edible..the blueberry or whatever filling inside is a little extra sensational..makes richer in taste. When put in the fridge, some may like it cold, some hate it not so soft anymore..after a night or two you'd lose interest and the rest will be left going bad..n sooner or later, the trash bin is the answer.
Life is like a cupcake..everything seems so nice with empty promises, exciting new plans..abundance of wealth n blings, pretty embellishments, and so forth..So much of it is just uncertainties, fake, and poison to the minds..but the initial true being of oneself in life is most cherishable..any extra in truthfulness, in pleasant good character is the extra bonus that is hard to find..abundance, health n wealth will follow.. In any relationships, stages and levels in life, everyone loves the fresh new feeling..when everything seems so promising and exciting..but when the passion and enthusiasm cools down, some may like the silence and solitude in a form of peace..the rest are just like an aged cupcake..going bad..left to rot..time for a new change again.. So.."Life is like a cupcake"..eat it while it's fresh..cherish it..appreciate it..enjoy it..cos' you'll never know..how soon or later it will go sour..till when your physical n mental health can sustain..so, what are you waiting for..? "whallup la cepat..!" Cherish and appreciate what you have..Hopefully the beautiful memories are forever..  ~ *a good cupcake is unforgettable.. 

A Day To Remember

This article came out on a day of mourning for me..I didn't share or post it on my fb wall till today..cos' on that particular day, 5th January..was my Pa's 11th anniversary of passing..I didn't get out of my house so excitedly to get a copy of The Star paper..I only get these images in WhatsApp from friends who saw my name n my artwork within the pages. I remember. .I was holding my phone..looking at these images so silently with tears in my eyes..Back then..I so wish I could run up to surprise my Pa with this little thing..hoping that it would at least give him a smile on his ever conservative n serious looking face..maybe he would at least feel a bit proud of me..no?
A fellow colleague was teasing me, "Wahh..so jealous la..your artwork is the biggest picture on the page.."..but I wasn't proud..
Today..I would love to dedicate my success to him..my Pa..cos' all these years he have been my inspiration..the strength that mould a big part of my personality to be mannered, determined n strong as a person altogether..**Happy Fathers' Day** ..and I would be happy if this could be some little inspiration for all you fathers out there..to be one hell of a great example of the good things you could ever portray as a father figure.. an inspiration to all, to be inspired, determined n mannered as a person..so contentment, happiness n success will follow n be with you.. **Happy Fathers' Day!** 

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Love Can't Lie..

Love can't lie..
At least, for me..I really don't think so..
For anyone who comes across this page and reading this..please..you should just step yourself in someone else's shoes and imagine..
You know that "I love you" doesn't mean anything when it's so hard to say it out from your lips..that makes your other half have to ask the questions every now and then,"do you love me..?"..and "how much..?"..that seems n sounds more stupid than ever..
You know that "I always cherish you", "I treasure our moments together", "you are someone special in my life", "I'm proud to have you as my girlfriend/boyfriend in my life"..those are all lies when there's absolutely no picture of you together being posted on the wall..no sweet names..no Darling..no Honey..no Sweetheart that sounds the same as it feels..no nothing ever shown in public as a clear official action, in quite a direct expression telling the world that "we are together"..or "he/she is mine".
Love can never lie..
When you say that,"we don't need to show it to the world".."love is only me and you"..all these..in time..are proven quite ironic and sarcastic kinda' lies..so, keep it to yourself.. Your face says it all..your actions clears it all..your words will never be louder than your actions..and sadly..many of you didn't realize..it's an insult to the other half..more hurting than telling the truth..that "I don't have those feelings with/for you".."I don't think I can click with you that way"..or "you're not the one I'm looking for"..and so to put a fullstop to the hurting just right there..but lies drag all the hurting on and on, and even hurting more and more. Honesty never hurt as much as lies..never..
It is very spontaneous and natural in behavior, words and actions..that when you love somebody, you'd love to go places with this person..be seen everywhere, getting excited with plans doing just about anything with this person..so naturally show that 'he/she is mine'..that kinda thing..and we are happy together..make all the effort to talk and connect in any way possible..(*owh come'on..it's a freakin'modern electronic world we're livin' in, ain't we..one click and you'll see and talk to each other face to face..)..doesn't matter if you're half way around the world from where he/she is. When you're keen, you'll make effort however..but when you're not, all you make are excuses after excuses.. and the most ironic thing is..soon after that, when there's a new relationship you've started..you've revealed and proven all your lies and excuses by your actions..by just doing all the things you've said you're not, that you won't, and so forth..and so forth..
So..with whoever whether you like it or not, you love or not..just don't lie. It makes you look just as stupid as you said you're not. Most of all, your ego doesn't work..and will never work. *lol...!^^
So..what about me..?
Looking back at my previous relationships, I have no regrets of putting them to and end, cos it's often proven that my decisions are right. The future I couldn't see or no longer see..well..I really should turn my head elsewhere isn't it..and some are indirectly giving me negative feelings and it's like toxic to my soul..I'll have to find a better way to discard...*hm...one fine day..I'll have to clear my trash can...*haihszzz...
So I said to Crystal last night when she called n talked to me over the phone.."It's not good for your soul, Crystal..if he doesn't accept and keep you hanging for months, that's already a negative indication. There's nothing to wait on..no use holding on. If he didn't feel you're not there, he didn't cherish your presence either..so, let go..no use crying.."..poor girl..
Over the years, what I always find is..honesty and straightforwardness somehow always give unpleasant feelings no matter little or so much, but in return, it always rewards you with a truthful and trustworthy relationship that holds for stronger and longer if not for life. That is one of those precious things money can never buy. But remember..do have some mercy. Never say or do things that you can never imagine taking it yourself..At least, this is one of those things I do keep reminding myself time after time..in case I'd forget.. *owh...I'm growing so old now.. *(~_~!)
It's another silent night of mourning..this time of the year..every year..for the eleventh now. Breathing so deep..only this silent can give me peace..no tears could wash away the shades of grey on my window..my silent window..

Crystals In The Eyes

Lov.. there's no need to cry

the kite disappeared too high up in the sky

cut the string..the storm is coming

let go of your hands or you'll die..

Read those faces of clouds and winds

if they come as shelter or breeze

or if they blow the dust into your eyes

or let the sun burn your skin..

Cover yourself and walk away

come fly again another day

for yours a kite will soar up high 

with colours seen though the sky is grey..

~ outside my misty window pane..~

6th January, 2014

Love is always obvious...so obviously shown in anything you say and do..
in those sunny sunshine smiles and colours on your brightened up face..
in your footsteps as you dance through the rhythm that helps you get by your every day life..
in your body language..
in your eyes..
..Love..
can never lie..