I was talking to Soo one night over some coffee in the studio cafe..enjoying each other's company..sharing ideas and point of views as always..and I heard the sigh in between the lines. Clearly..it's one of those unpleasant days at home again. Aww...
With his brows raised..and a little surprised, he asked,
"How did u know..?"
I simply replied with a smile,
"It's not that hard..I just listen... with my heart.."
Listen
Listen ..
when the morning sunshine sings
when the birds chirping for the birth of a new spring
singing how beautiful a life could bring..
*
Listen..
to the rhythm when the raindrop falls
for the dark winds whoozing for the rain they call
for they heard the deepest voices from thy wall..
*
Listen..listen with thy heart
to the soothing sounds of the shallow stream
for the flows of the tales thou have not seen
for the rush of a danger when it screams..
~17th May, 2010~
Listen ..
when the morning sunshine sings
when the birds chirping for the birth of a new spring
singing how beautiful a life could bring..
*
Listen..
to the rhythm when the raindrop falls
for the dark winds whoozing for the rain they call
for they heard the deepest voices from thy wall..
*
Listen..listen with thy heart
to the soothing sounds of the shallow stream
for the flows of the tales thou have not seen
for the rush of a danger when it screams..
~17th May, 2010~
"Love itself..is selfish.." he said.. "..and so does everyone else.."
Why so? Because you want to have everything of him/her to yourself, to spend lots of time with you, all the attention, thoughts, etc.. and never share. _ Don't get the wrong idea here. 'Sharing' doesn't mean 1 boyfriend between 2 girlfriends, or maybe even more..or vice versa. I don't approve such behavior. I guess, honestly..no one would.
Suddenly, it came across my mind to ask him some questions, to remind him of the love he have, the love he have had, and the love he'd never lost. I remember asking him,"How'd you feel when you keep seeing guys being with her? Would you be jealous?" And he did say, "Yes..that's for sure.."
Wait.. Now let me ask you this.. "Would you rather know that she is surrounded with people who'd help her, love her and protect her..? ..or people who'd hate her, or even of a harm or a threat when you can't always be around for her to protect and to love her..? Or would you rather lock her away with her loneness in the dungeon of your jealousy..? Hmm..?? (..giggle..)
With a smile and a little giggle, he said, "Yeah..that's true..but I can't get to that level yet. It's difficult."
Well, when you love someone, you'd want her to be happy, safe around friends she could trust to protect and love her. And so..comes honesty and loyalty. It takes time for sure..to erase or at least hold back the jealousy. Even when you say that you can, how would you actually feel deep inside your heart? It takes time, and hell lot of trust and honesty u'know..
At the same time, at the back of my head, I was asking myself..can I do that..? Ermm...I don't know..really. I only know that, it does take time.. and if you've lost or betray that trust and honesty, it's over. Life goes on and I won't look back..(..unless it's a nice view.._lol..!)
Somehow, I'm so happy that I'm still able to stay close and be there for all my ex when they need me. 'They'...? Yes..all 3 of them respectfully..! I love them..and they do still love me, just in a different way. They have their family, wife and girlfriend..and I'm so happy for them. I'm glad that I'm able to be someone they could trust to listen to them, someone they could talk to, and someone who are able to help and work out those tangles in their mind when they're troubled and unhappy. We could talk about anything openly. Work, people, anything intimate...anything at all. And whenever I need them, they are always within reach. I couldn't be more thankful for that.
Though I may be one of those most busy buzzy bee..always on the run..always busy, but when needed, I'll always be there for a cup of coffee, or a little pot of fragrant chrysenthymum tea.
"I may not have the strength to hold you when you fall,
but my arms are always open when you need a little warmth..
Though my bony shoulders are none of a comfort,
but I'm always here to listen to the voice of your heart.."
but my arms are always open when you need a little warmth..
Though my bony shoulders are none of a comfort,
but I'm always here to listen to the voice of your heart.."
So...are you free..? You wanna' have some coffee..? ..tea..? ..or me..? >.< (Eeeee.....!)
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