Owh..where is the box of tissue now when I need it..?..hold on...
The past week have been such a rush..rush of time..rush of work..rush of emotions.. I am about to let go of a life..a love..and start anew.. Though it's for the better, it was so hard for me..to let go...
This studio..is where I have brought my career to another level..exposed myself to a lot more precious experience, love and excitement..and most of all, where I have had most beautiful memories in this chapter of my life I am about to put to an end to.
4 years and 4 months..those were the best years of my life..where I have built many of my dreams come true..I felt like a total elevation..like huge fireworks I have launched into the sky.. I'm so happy everybody enjoyed seeing it.. Every single person who walked into the door of CASTOR & POLLUX Professional Styling Studio..can really see and feel that there are so much life in me I've spend and created in here..in this space..Blood and sweat..sigh and frown..Love and pride..joy and laughter..This is my ultimate playground..
Like a friend said,"..This is where you had your best confidence, a place where you've worked and excel so fiercely..expressed so freely, played so happily..This is your playground where you've found the most freedom and happiness out of the bits and bitter of your life where you've gather your courage and strength and built your own dreams came true with your own bare hands. This is a place of your happiness..everyone can see it.. Everyone..! Please don't ever let it go..I'm afraid that you'll lose your happiness and freedom..and back to feeling restricted again.."
Yes..that's true. I am just such a person.. Letting go a huge part of my life for others, for other things I'd find meaningful to my life..making sacrifices as long as I do feel that it's for the better..this is not something new to me.. Anyone who knows me well..my best of friends..they know me..but nobody really knows.. No one but me...
The journey I have walked through..run and leap and eventually excel and fly so high..how my inner self, my career, achievement and feelings have been elevated so high..this studio..this Love..what it means to me..how hard I have worked so passionately and fight to build all of it come true..Every heartbeat..every breath I took as I build it all up to be as beautiful as I wanted.. As if.."This is it..the Love of my life..as how I have always dreamed of.. I made it!"..and I'm so satisfied and relief I could cry for happiness every time I stood right there in the middle of the dance hall, taking a glance..a good look at all the things around me..carefully created..beautifully painted and amazingly nurtured with so much art..love..and care.. This is my home of Love..my Heaven..and it's the only thing in my whole life that I could be so proud of...
In a few days..just less than a week from now..
I will never see it as it is again..
Things will never be the same again..
I will never Love the same way..
..ever again..
~ Best years of my life.. ~
Everybody Knows - John Legend
It gets harder every day, but I can't seem to shake the pain
I'm trying to find the words to say, please stay
It's written all over my face,
I can't function the same when you're not here
I'm calling your name but no one's there
And I hope one day you'll see nobody has it easy,
I still can't believe you found somebody new
But I wish you the best, I guess..
Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows
Just how to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try..
One more try..
'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows..
I don't care what the people say
They brought it all in anyway
Baby don't fill up your head with he-said, she-said
It seems like you just don't know
The radios on, you're tuning me out,
I'm trying to speak, you're turning me down..
And I hope one day you'll see nobody has it easy,
I still cant believe you found somebody new
But I wish you the best, I guess..
Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows
Just how to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try..
One more try..
One more try..
Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows..
Oh I wish you'd understand
Oh, just an ordinary man
Wish that we had known
Everybody knows, but nobody really knows
And I know one day you'll see, nobody has it easy
I still cant believe you found somebody new
I wish you the best, I guess..
Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows
Just how to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try..
One more try..
One more try..
Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows..
*
I'm trying to find the words to say, please stay
It's written all over my face,
I can't function the same when you're not here
I'm calling your name but no one's there
And I hope one day you'll see nobody has it easy,
I still can't believe you found somebody new
But I wish you the best, I guess..
Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows
Just how to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try..
One more try..
'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows..
I don't care what the people say
They brought it all in anyway
Baby don't fill up your head with he-said, she-said
It seems like you just don't know
The radios on, you're tuning me out,
I'm trying to speak, you're turning me down..
And I hope one day you'll see nobody has it easy,
I still cant believe you found somebody new
But I wish you the best, I guess..
Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows
Just how to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try..
One more try..
One more try..
Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows..
Oh I wish you'd understand
Oh, just an ordinary man
Wish that we had known
Everybody knows, but nobody really knows
And I know one day you'll see, nobody has it easy
I still cant believe you found somebody new
I wish you the best, I guess..
Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows
Just how to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try..
One more try..
One more try..
Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows..
*
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